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  <title>inside.</title>
  <subtitle>a look into the depths</subtitle>
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    <email>jacky.bee@gmail.com</email>
    <name>dreyanna</name>
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    <title>Success!</title>
    <published>2009-12-22T13:09:52Z</published>
    <updated>2009-12-22T13:09:52Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Yuletide was a wonderful night and most successful indeed.&lt;br /&gt;Good times good friends good food good booze. All the food and drink was a hit. Especially the mooseballs. I shall have to make some more as soon as I can! &lt;br /&gt;I got a beautiful mother goddess, an adorable gnome charm, and a witchy charm braclet that goes to support a pagan school! A pagan school! That's super cool. I wanna go to a pagan school.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Anyways. Lots of people came out, well a decent number at least. Not too many, and the rotation worked out just fine. It was nice to see Erika and her whole family. Keenan was a total hit and looked so effing adorable in his little santa suit! Totally stole the show! Erika I'll get out this week to get you your cookie box! :P&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;oh shit, I've run out of time. Must go to work.&lt;br /&gt;Two more days, then two weeks off.&lt;br /&gt;Just two more days.</content>
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    <title>Happy Sunday</title>
    <published>2009-12-20T16:46:37Z</published>
    <updated>2009-12-20T16:46:37Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Boogie woogie Santa</lj:music>
    <content type="html">I know a lot of people get bitter over the holiday season about the commercialism and the just general buy out of Christmas. But I don't tend to pay that much mind. Yes, I have spent a small fortune on gifts, but that's okay because it'll bring smiles to those I love. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Okay. Another errand day. Just whipped up the hippie fudge. (Missy remind me to send you this recipie, delicious, sweet and all natural stuff) Need to go out to pick up some bread, some books, and a garbage can. Then make Mooseballs, then get ready for Khristmas and Kmom's. :)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Two more guarenteed days of work, one maybe, then break for the holidays! Though I don't know how they can get much better. &lt;br /&gt;We were decorating gingerbread men and making stockings last night. Steve made his bdsm ones. Super cute. Or kinky I should say. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Anywho, still have some fussing about to do for Yule, but I think it's going to work out as well! &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;On with my day. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Oh. PS.&lt;br /&gt;EVERYONE POST MORE!&lt;br /&gt;EVERYONE.&lt;br /&gt;I know you're out there.</content>
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    <title>Hello World</title>
    <published>2009-12-17T16:43:55Z</published>
    <updated>2009-12-17T16:43:55Z</updated>
    <lj:music>The Refreshments -- Down together</lj:music>
    <content type="html">I feel somewhat chipper today even though the day has not even really started and it is rather chilly in here. I'm really cheap and afraid of giant hydro bills so I use the absolute minimum of everything all the time. I have fantastic sheets and comforters so I stay all toasty. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I still need to decorate those gingerbread men and make that last batch of sugar cookies. Oooh, this week remember to make that hippy fudge. Man that shit was fantastic. Have to go to Market Organics to find most stuff. Mmmm tahini. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I'm very excited for Monday, Yuletide is awesome and I think/hope a decent chunk of people are coming out for it. Now I worry about seating, but I think we can borrow stuff from the boys next door. Also worried a bit about food. Just meat. I think I need to go out and buy some more meat. Nom nom nom. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Okay, I just felt like typing. I like the way it makes my fingers feel. Tappa tappa tappa. &lt;br /&gt;I'm going to get into a nice warm shower and continue on with my day. &lt;br /&gt;Toodle oooooo</content>
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    <title>God I hate working</title>
    <published>2009-12-15T19:03:41Z</published>
    <updated>2009-12-15T19:03:41Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Random Christmas tunes</lj:music>
    <content type="html">I'm not even there yet. But the bitterness has set in and I don't know that I can shake it out. &lt;br /&gt;The weekend was rather lovely. Filled with lots of baking and chilling and more baking. Convinced Julio to stay over which was nice. I love my place. And now it's all Christmas-y and smells like cookies. How can you not love that? &lt;br /&gt;I told him I'd stay over all this week though. I'm working nights so I wouldn't have a lot of time to see him. And every now and again, I'm reminded just how much I love him. Yesterday we were kinda bored, kept wanting to -do- something. When nothing came to mind we spent hours just talking, giggling, wrestling. All around enjoying each others company. That's the part I like the most. &lt;br /&gt;I think I'm finally done my x-mas shopping. Well, the absoulte nessesities at least. I think I may pick up a crystal skull for Steve and I have an idea for a small Yule for Alex. But I am done diddly done. Except for that picture. I got a really nice frame for my Nana and now just need a nice photo to put in it. I was either thinking Eric and I in front of Mom's tree, or Julio and I on Santa's knee. :) &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Planning a nice yule dinner for next Monday. Can I make them give it to me off for religious reasons? I'm going to try to avoid saying that, but if it comes down to it. All of Canada is practically closed for the birth of a lord and savior that a majority of Canada doesn't claim as their own lord and savior. So I don't see why I can take the day off to be close to the ones I love to fight against the darkest night. &lt;br /&gt;I just want to be home before sunset to light the candles. That's it. That's all. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Now work is giving me flak for wanting the week off for my vacation, when I told him about it AT MY INTERVIEW! Worse comes to worse I'll give my two weeks before that, then be free of this dreadful place. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Anywho. &lt;br /&gt;I have a few more emails to pop off and my mom to harass.&lt;br /&gt;So that's that.</content>
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    <title>Woo! Gettin' er Done!</title>
    <published>2009-12-14T15:04:01Z</published>
    <updated>2009-12-14T15:04:01Z</updated>
    <lj:music>clicktey clack</lj:music>
    <content type="html">So I just got a shelf. I'm excited. A shelf is one of those few things I still need to make this apartment complete. Another thing is a garbage can. Like a real one. A pencil/pen holder, and I think I'd like a carpet, to make the place warmer and more welcome to sit on the floor. Then it will actually be 100% done. I was thinking curtains to seperate the rooms, but I've gotten used to it and like it. Go big room!&lt;br /&gt;The problem I'm having now is that I lent my hammer to Matt. I don't think he'd be down for me knocking on his door at 10am, so Imma give it a few hours. In the mean time I can roll out and cut some more cookies. The first batch came out okay. Not as neat as they could, but my dough was so sticky! Probably still is. I wiped the counters really well and they're super dry so hopefully I'll have some more luck. I just wish there was someone to keep me company while I bake. It's not as entertaining by ourself. Ah well, what can you do? &lt;br /&gt;So it turns out I won some Senators tickets for next Monday, but that's Yule and I'd rather have a dinner over here. So I'm thinking Craigslist? How much could I get for them I wonder? We shall find out.&lt;br /&gt;Speaking of yule dinner, I should find some more stuff for it. I have Lamb, which we always tend to have for Yule, I'm thinkin some sweet pertaters and veg. &lt;br /&gt;Oh so Alex, you, Kmom, Nat and Nic (if he'd like) are all invited of course. Monday night(next) the 21st. We'll light some candles against the darkest night.&lt;br /&gt;Mental Note: Still want to have ritual in summer dedicated to Dionysus (sp?) aka, drink lots of wine and dance about. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;K, Imma go putter around or do whatever it is that I do.</content>
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    <title>Back to Norm. Or as close as I get.</title>
    <published>2009-12-13T15:28:19Z</published>
    <updated>2009-12-13T15:28:19Z</updated>
    <lj:music>It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Well, that week is over. Bring on the next. &lt;br /&gt;Supposedly you shouldn't wish your life away. Which I agree with. The last two weeks just were rather wonky and did a number on my psyche. &lt;br /&gt;I slept decently last night though. So now I feel like myself again. &lt;br /&gt;I woke up early this morning, looked out into my apartment and offered a prayer of thanks for my wonderful apartment. I really am greatful I was able to get it and into my own space. Lovely. &lt;br /&gt;Anywho, worked yesterday in an attempt to bump my hours up, as they were closer to 60 when I'm used to 80. Yeesh. &lt;br /&gt;Got all my ingredients and started round one of baking. Mel came over to help, and I'm grateful for that too. We made the dough for Gingerbread men, which I forgot to put cinnamon in, but will fold in when I roll it out. Puppy chow, Rice crispies and homemade irish cream. Yum. It's got a bit of a bite to it, but would be perfect in coffee, or with milk and ice. Yum yum yum. I think I may buy a pretty bottle for it today, as I just have it in a water bottle and that's not as exciting as it could be. &lt;br /&gt;I'm pleased to report that I only have one person left to buy for. Maybe a few stocking stuffers and then I am done. And I don't think I totally broke the bank. Maybe slightly. But nothing I can't recover from. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I think I'm going to do a batch of Sugar Cookie dough to sit, then go out to the dollar store and see about getting some more decorations to make this place a little more festive. &lt;br /&gt;I've made my Christmas playlist and and gives me a bump in my step. :)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Woot</content>
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    <title>Finally a baby!</title>
    <published>2009-12-10T19:55:38Z</published>
    <updated>2009-12-10T19:55:38Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Santa Baby- Madonna</lj:music>
    <content type="html">So, &lt;br /&gt;I woke up early on Tuesday morning, went in to the hospital, went to work, then back to the hospital. Stayed overnight. I got there just before 8pm, stayed up working with her. &lt;br /&gt;The pain finally got to her so she asked for an epidural....which didn't work. So she asked for another one. Which didn't work. The poor thing. At 3 or 4 we started making some real progress with dilation and the baby finally came at 5.32am. 6lbs 15oz. 9 and 9 for Apgar. Good scores. Then I went to work for 8.30am. So very very exhausted. Worked, left a little early, then slept for like 20 hours. Now I feel better. &lt;br /&gt;I have to say I'm really disappointed in my Doula-ing. I felt so helpless, useless, like I didn't really do anything. I'm reconsidering my position...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Still trying to find my secret santa what he/she wanted. (I know Alex reads this and I don't want to give anything away. :P... ps. Alex I got you.. or is it Kyle?) &lt;br /&gt;I dont think I can find it so I'm going for the back up thing instead. &lt;br /&gt;I so want to be done x-mas shopping and move onto the baking part! I think I'm going to have an informal baking party at my place on Saturday. &lt;br /&gt;We got the first real snowfall, which I'm actually pretty excited about. If the weather drops a little more we may be able to go skating on the Canal before February! &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Well, I suppose that's it for now.&lt;br /&gt;Starting work in an hour.&lt;br /&gt;Yippie.</content>
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    <title>The Waiting Game.</title>
    <published>2009-12-08T22:54:03Z</published>
    <updated>2009-12-08T22:54:03Z</updated>
    <content type="html">So!&lt;br /&gt;Went in Monday night, nothing really happening. Back at 8am. at 10am we were at 2cm. Came to work. Still here. Going back after. Hoping for baby by 9 or 10 we shall see. &lt;br /&gt;Poor lady wants to go home. Understandable. &lt;br /&gt;I'm very tired, exhausted even. But still a long night ahead of us, and work at 8am! Yippie! &lt;br /&gt;Will redbull soon. &lt;br /&gt;PUSH IT!! heheh.&lt;br /&gt;Work sucks, but..I thought I was in trouble, turns out I'm not. May not get that raise, but we'll see. "Lead by example" they say. Oh..okay.&lt;br /&gt;Will let y'all know the status of baby when I do.&lt;br /&gt;Phew.&lt;br /&gt;xooxo</content>
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    <title>Okay..</title>
    <published>2009-12-07T20:59:03Z</published>
    <updated>2009-12-07T20:59:03Z</updated>
    <content type="html">So there's more waiting, but at least I know what's going on. &lt;br /&gt;She's being induced with gel that can take up to 24 hours to take affect. I'm going to visit her in a few hours, see how's she's feeling, what I can do ect. and we'll go from there. If she wants me to stay the night, I'm cool with that because it'll take me a while to get out there. &lt;br /&gt;More waiting, but at least a general plan.&lt;br /&gt;But, because things are a little touch and go, work is none to happy. I don't blame them, it just kind of sucks as that job is annoying me more and more everyday. And I kind of want to blow it up.&lt;br /&gt;But then what would I do? Ahh well. &lt;br /&gt;Now, I have to try to do something productive and not drive myself mental.&lt;br /&gt;Get nice and grounded and see what's going on. :) &lt;br /&gt;okay.&lt;br /&gt;here we go.</content>
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    <title>okay</title>
    <published>2009-12-05T02:58:05Z</published>
    <updated>2009-12-05T02:58:05Z</updated>
    <content type="html">So I'm okay.&lt;br /&gt;Heather's okay.&lt;br /&gt;Every thing is going to be. O.K.&lt;br /&gt;After 4 and a half hours of me freaking out I finally got a hold of her. She had a doctor's appointment today and I guess she's low on amniotic fluid but high in blood pressure so they wanted to induce her today. &lt;br /&gt;But after a while decided to wait.&lt;br /&gt;She's got an appointment on Monday and will probably be induced that day. &lt;br /&gt;Soo, Jackson will be with us soon.&lt;br /&gt;Panic mode, off.&lt;br /&gt;Everything is going to be. O.K.</content>
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    <title>omg omg omg</title>
    <published>2009-12-04T21:47:39Z</published>
    <updated>2009-12-04T21:47:39Z</updated>
    <content type="html">okay.&lt;br /&gt;so I'm trying my very best to stay calm, but I need some information! &lt;br /&gt;I had my client meeting with Heather yesterday. &lt;br /&gt;She phoned me today and left a message saying they may induce her tonight, she sounded very upset and was crying. That was just after 2pm. I have been calling and calling. Her cellphone is off, no answer at home. Called the hospital, they don't seem to know anything. &lt;br /&gt;I'm just so afraid she's in labor and I'm not there. &lt;br /&gt;omg omg omg.&lt;br /&gt;Trying to breathe and stay calm. But it's hard.&lt;br /&gt;I just want to know what the HELL is going on! &lt;br /&gt;My poor lady.&lt;br /&gt;So.&lt;br /&gt;We may be having a baby tonight. &lt;br /&gt;Will post again when I can.&lt;br /&gt;oh jeeze.</content>
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    <title>Sheer Lunacy</title>
    <published>2009-12-04T14:45:04Z</published>
    <updated>2009-12-04T14:45:04Z</updated>
    <lj:music>LMFAO &lt;-- Don't judge me.</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Hello Lj.&lt;br /&gt;What a week this has been. &lt;br /&gt;I have not been feelin it at all. I left work 4 hours early on Monday and an hour on Tuesday. 50 bucks down the drain. Wednesday was also wonky. Emotionally just a whole lot of bullshit this week. Yesterday was thankfully fine, if not a little tiring. Today, so far so good. &lt;br /&gt;I met with Heather yesterday and she's in such a great headspace about her labor. I'm very excited. She's hoping to pop by the solstice. So we'll see what happens. Her boy will be Jackson Leo. Which I think is neat. &lt;br /&gt;Now just to find some nice moonstone and we shall see what's up. &lt;br /&gt;No real plans this weekend. Have to go to *shudder* Walmart to see if I can find the thing that my secret santa wants. If not, it's tough shit for them! HA! I should include that in the present. "I went to Walmart for you" &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I had this amazing dream the other night that may have spawned a story for me. It was so real and so not at the same time. I think I was somewhat lucid for it. It was a beautiful properity, stretching from the river up to the top of the mountain. I could feel the bark under my fingers. Also, there was a hidden elevator in a tree that took you to the top. Totally bitchen. &lt;br /&gt;I saw someone I used to know there. We talked, but they did not recongize me. It made me wonder what my dream self looks like. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;On another note Mom and I are getting very excited for our trip. She's booked us at the spa before we go. Her for her toes, me getting legs waxed. FUN! &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Who knows what tne next week will bring.&lt;br /&gt;I'm hoping to see some friends that I haven't seen in a while, namely Alex and Emily. &lt;br /&gt;That would be super duper. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Anywhoo,&lt;br /&gt;I'm going to read some texts from last night before work. &lt;br /&gt;Oh, I recomend it, it's stupid and short, but kinda funny.&lt;br /&gt;textsfromlastnight.com&lt;br /&gt;that's it.&lt;br /&gt;Enjoy.</content>
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    <published>2009-11-30T15:19:00Z</published>
    <updated>2009-11-30T15:19:00Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Hello you.&lt;br /&gt;Week good, weekend good, simpsons good. &lt;br /&gt;Week flew by again, which I like for the most part. But then I wonder where all this time as gone and why I seem to be older. I still feel 17. But it's been almost TEN years! Dang it. &lt;br /&gt;Friday was x-mas party at work. Good times, got hammered at the end, slamming killer koolaids will do that to you. &lt;br /&gt;Passed the fuck out.&lt;br /&gt;Saturday, hanging out and cleaning and stuffs. Hung out at Nat's for a while, came home, cleaned a bunch, swept and mopped my floor at 1am, then went to the Dom for a beer, then came home again.&lt;br /&gt;Slept in a little, met up with Erika, took Keenan for a nice walk. Baked a chocolate chip banana bread that ACTUALLY WORKED! Delicious. &lt;br /&gt;Then to Julio's for Simpsons. &lt;br /&gt;Good episode. Good times. &lt;br /&gt;That's about it.&lt;br /&gt;Boring, but meh.&lt;br /&gt;xoxo</content>
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    <title>*sigh*</title>
    <published>2009-11-24T19:56:00Z</published>
    <updated>2009-11-24T19:56:00Z</updated>
    <lj:music>I've just seen a face-- Beatles</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Work is frustrating me a heckvalot today. &lt;br /&gt;But soon it will be over, then I will STAR WARS IN CONCERT! &lt;br /&gt;I'm very excited about that. &lt;br /&gt;I was going to post something of substance, but looks like it's back to the grind for me. &lt;br /&gt;Whoopie.</content>
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    <title>God I love books.</title>
    <published>2009-11-19T13:10:58Z</published>
    <updated>2009-11-19T13:10:58Z</updated>
    <lj:music>life outside</lj:music>
    <content type="html">I'm so glad this book found me. I really am. &lt;br /&gt;One day, a few weeks ago I was walking to Julio's. It was garbage day and a house on his street had a black box filled with books. I couldn't help myself. Seeing all those books just going to garbage. I did it, I snooped. They were mostly cooking, some random things. I stopped myself after a few minutes. I could have easily picked through the whole thing. I got some chocolate recipe book, and a book called The Birth House. Amazing. Set in Nova Scotia, starting in 1916 and moving forward, it's the tale about a rural midwife, a "modern" obstetrician and family life then. Utterly amazing and everything I needed right now. It made me laugh the "modern" doctors comments about how all pregnant wowen are neurotic, that morning sickness is just a mothers way of getting attention, that women should demand the right for Twilight sleep. Made me laugh, and want to cry at the same time, because this was the belief of professionals in the field. Scary thought ne?&lt;br /&gt;Now, I know that I haven't had a child, but I do have all the bits to make one and grow one, so I have a general idea at least. And I'm sure there are many many male doctors in this world who are sympathetic, knowledgable and very helpful. But all in all, can you really leave the world of birthing in a man's hands? Would he, could he really understand? &lt;br /&gt;When my first client was about to be induced they gave her a cervial exam, the first nurse was a male, when he put his hands inside of her she jumped and felt pain. Hours later, a female preformed the same exam with gentleness and ease. My client felt no pain or anxiety. Hmm.. &lt;br /&gt;...&lt;br /&gt;So this week -so far- has been the week of "supposed ta's" I was supposed ta do circle with Mel on Monday, was utterly exhausted. Was supposed to attend La Leche League with Erika, was still utterly exhausted and miscalculated the time. &lt;br /&gt;Yesterday.. I guess was okay. I was supposed ta get my shot, and I did. Go me. Let's see how today fares. &lt;br /&gt;xoxoxo</content>
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    <title>When I'm Queen....</title>
    <published>2009-11-13T12:48:26Z</published>
    <updated>2009-11-13T12:48:26Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Billie Jean</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Early mornings won't exist. &lt;br /&gt;I'd just like to take a moment to give thanks. &lt;br /&gt;It's not often in life we have a fancy and get it completed. So very often in life we don't get the things we want. But I did. And I would like to express my gratitude for it. &lt;br /&gt;Last night I had some friends over, we drank some pink wine, smoked some joints and played Upwords, (think scrabble but vertical too!) Julio came as they left. We didn't put on a movie, or something to watch. We just stayed with each other. Talked to each other, laughed and had good times. I don't know how long I've wanted that for, but I finally got it. &lt;br /&gt;Thank you. &lt;br /&gt;For all the trouble he causes me, all the frustration, I've never known happiness like it is in his arms. :)&lt;br /&gt;Anywho, enough sappy. Working 9-5, some dinner plans with Mel, we're planning a lovely time. Friday funday, weekend, drink-end. :P Maybe ikea on Sat? I need some more little things for the house. Like garbabe cans! &lt;br /&gt;I should go though. The point of getting up early was to be early for work. :P&lt;br /&gt;xoxox</content>
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    <title>Hello Lj</title>
    <published>2009-11-11T18:28:11Z</published>
    <updated>2009-11-11T18:28:11Z</updated>
    <lj:music>that wendy's burger song. Remember the burger song? Love it.</lj:music>
    <content type="html">It's a beautiful sunny autumn afternoon, and I will soon be out in it. &lt;br /&gt;I have a few things to take care of here first, but then I'm off. &lt;br /&gt;Tonight is "Campus Idol" which should be interesting if not painful. &lt;br /&gt;I tend to wear a skirt and make-up on event nights because I notice it gets me more tips. &lt;br /&gt;I went to pick up some groceries today and stopped in the bookstore. *_* So. Many. Books. &lt;br /&gt;I'm such a whore for books. I'm one of those terrible people that doesn't necessarily read all the books either. I just like having them. I have on about magnetism and electricity that I probably won't ever read. But it tells you how to build a Tesla coil, should the need ever arise. I think I'm more an information whore. Whether I know it or you know it, as long as someone somewhere knows it. I'm happy. I hate the idea of so much knowledge being lost over the years. &lt;br /&gt;I'm sure it's a fact of life, but still upsetting. &lt;br /&gt;I didn't do any of the work this morning that I said I would do. &lt;br /&gt;Other than the dishes. &lt;br /&gt;Emmers and the ladies stopped by yesterday. I love my Emily, I think she's super duper. But some of the girls she hangs out with. Phew. I mean sweet girls and everything. And it's not like I'm a great philosopher and discuss deep issues all the time. But all these girls seem to talk about is nailpolish and getting hammered and getting dick and bikini waxing. All really superficial retarded, "this is why people say women are stupid" kind of thing. Yeesh. I feel like it brings Em down to that level too. Again, not like we're all genious' here, or not like I don't have those very conversations myself. Yeah, I do get wasted, yes I like to pain my toenails. I would love a good bikini wax, but I know there is MORE to life than just these things. &lt;br /&gt;Anywho, didn't mean to bash on friends of friends or anything. &lt;br /&gt;I should tend to my errands and get out in the sun. &lt;br /&gt;One of the books I got was a Scott Cunningham. Only $5! &lt;br /&gt;"The Wheel turns, the Power burns"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;xoxoxo</content>
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    <title>Hullo</title>
    <published>2009-11-10T04:48:01Z</published>
    <updated>2009-11-10T04:48:01Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Ziggy Stardust</lj:music>
    <content type="html">The last two days the weather has been wonderful. For this I've been greatful. &lt;br /&gt;There's always days in the changing of the seasons that get confused. Specifially Spring and Fall, they smell like one another, taste like one another. &lt;br /&gt;Yesterday I could have sworn that the Earth was ready to wake up from a slumber instead of heading straight into it. Well, I guess not straight, we may take the scenic route. &lt;br /&gt;The weekend was good, which is always good. Friday had a lot of good in it with some bad threaded. Spent the day with Erika and Keenan again. She got a hair cut so I got to walk around the mall and play with him and let people gush over how cute my baby was.. I confessed the truth to some of them, but only some. :P &lt;br /&gt;Went to the food and wine show with Alex... the rest, all kinda melts into one. I know that Keith joined us, as did her aunt. I know that I tried lots of tasty booze and food, except for those oysters, YEACH! Friday wanted to be difficult, but I was just too tanked too early to be able to allow that. So instead fun insued, and the bad was put aside for another time. What I remember of the Dom was good laughs, sounds, shots, and cigarettes. I don't quite recall leaving, it was sudden then here I was. Spent the rest of the evening and into the very afternoon in laughs and giggles, slumber, stretches and a lot of interesting conversations. &lt;br /&gt;Then I went horseback riding. &lt;br /&gt;That was cool as well. My horse was Power Ranger! Who would trot for me a little when you sang "Go go Power Ranger!" fun times. Saturday night, saturday night... oh yeah, they tried to get me all festive like, but I think I just read a bunch. I think I went over to Julio's... now I can't be sure. Oh yeah! I did but got up early, had some breakfast, then beer and tooled around the market with Nat. &lt;br /&gt;We were -supposed- to do the Christmas draw, but a bunch of people copped out, which led others to be lazy, which led to more cake for us! &lt;br /&gt;I tried to make some squash, but accidentally dumped like a cup of brown sugar into it so it turned into some delicious but super sweet mush. Mmm mush. &lt;br /&gt;Well, I originally came on here to read back and see if I complained about cramps last night, as I'm oft to do. No such luck. When is it I'm supposed to get that thing? I'll give it another week before I really try to ponder. I think it was near mantracker though, so that should give me some time yet. &lt;br /&gt;Yes yes. &lt;br /&gt;Alright, back into my book, into a world that I wish I could have been born into. I could have kicked so much as.&lt;br /&gt;xoxox</content>
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  <entry>
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    <title>Ahhhh</title>
    <published>2009-11-04T15:57:10Z</published>
    <updated>2009-11-04T15:57:10Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Refreshments- Suckerpunch</lj:music>
    <content type="html">I love waking up here. &lt;br /&gt;Yes, it's loud outside. Yes I'd like the arms of my love to be about me. But despite not having those two things. Still love it. &lt;br /&gt;My sheets are so comfy, I stretch out. Decide what music to put on, what breakfast to eat. &lt;br /&gt;I usually slip on my favorite top (the tunic-y thing) and my slippers, open up the windows, sing a small diddy to Michael Jackson (my plant) and bop around. Especially on days, like today, where there's no immediate hustle to get out and hit the ground running. &lt;br /&gt;Now I'm eating a peanut butter smothered english muffin, sipping my way too sweet chai tea and pondering my plan of attack for the day. &lt;br /&gt;I'm going to wander down to Mon Cadeau, they have this drawer thing that is just too cool. I need to know if it's like $200 or what. I just want to know. &lt;br /&gt;Then I should try to be in line at the clinic for 12.30, it opens at one but fills up really fast. Hopefully I can get in and out before 2, so I can head to work for 3. &lt;br /&gt;They've been cutting my hours, which sucks. They'be been cutting a lot of peoples hours. I think as we move towards winter we're going to see more of this. &lt;br /&gt;Something to be aware of, must start saving. &lt;br /&gt;Need to save money for trip with mom to Dominican. Have been talking to a girl at work who's in Travel and Tourism, she's holding a seminar about backbacking in Europe. &lt;br /&gt;Oh how I'd love to head to the Emerald Isles. Maybe visit Scotland, see where I'm from. I'm sure that would cost me a ton of money. But I think I should do it if I could. I need to get out there more. I wonder who I could sucker to coming with me. I know Nat wants to travel, but she's said she wants to do an all inclusive, sit on the beach and drink your face off kinda thing.&lt;br /&gt;Hmm.&lt;br /&gt;If I'm a good girl I just may get to go to Flordia in February too. Wouldn't that be nice? &lt;br /&gt;Get some travelling in before I think more seriously about school.&lt;br /&gt;You know what's weird, a lot of kids, youth or young adults always complain that they never have enough time. Adults will either tell you that you do or you don't, depending on their experiences. But a lot of people in my generation, give or take, have this overwhelming sense of doom lingering over their heads. &lt;br /&gt;I wouldn't mind getting into school by the time I'm 28, but what if there is no school when I'm 28? No anything? &lt;br /&gt;Now I can't exactly live my life in fear and doom and expecting a big ka-boom at any instant. &lt;br /&gt;But how then should I live my life? &lt;br /&gt;I suppose as I have always done. &lt;br /&gt;One day at a time.</content>
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    <title>Oh my God, why am I awake?</title>
    <published>2009-11-03T13:10:25Z</published>
    <updated>2009-11-03T13:10:25Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Stupid daylight savings. &lt;br /&gt;My phone won't let me set the proper time.&lt;br /&gt;As such, I woke up at 6am. &lt;br /&gt;LAME.&lt;br /&gt;Work work work, it's all I do&lt;br /&gt;Work work work, it's time to goooo.</content>
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  <entry>
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    <title>Hello you</title>
    <published>2009-11-01T22:13:31Z</published>
    <updated>2009-11-01T22:13:31Z</updated>
    <lj:music>underworld</lj:music>
    <content type="html">This day has slipped away on me. &lt;br /&gt;I don't know what time I went to sleep at though.&lt;br /&gt;Had a lovely breakfast, now just chilling.&lt;br /&gt;The weekend was interesting. &lt;br /&gt;I didn't have to work on Friday, which sucks and was nice at the same time. I spent the better part of the day with Erika and Keenan. Which was super awesome. We did a bit of shopping, I got to play with Bean lots, which I always like, and Erika and I had a chance to just hang out and.. well, hang out. That was enough, ya know? &lt;br /&gt;The cable guy came to hook up my internet. YAY! I'm now connected. &lt;br /&gt;Adam was in town, may still be, he stopped by, we had a nice chat. Alex stopped by as well. We got some dinner at the Royal Thai. I should go there more often. The Pad Thai was delicious, and while we were eating I saw Kyle buzz my apt, so I could call him and tell him I wasn't there! Ah living downtown. &lt;br /&gt;After a while everyone departed. I spent some time just hanging out on my own. Went over to Julio's we drank and hung out and drank and such then off to the Dom. The night slipped away on me and I ended up being pretty hammered when I stumbled home at like 3am. Went to work on Sat for a few hours. Blech. &lt;br /&gt;Saw Mel and did some Samhain baking, which was awesome and delicious. DELICIOUS! I still have a caramel apple. It will be devoured... soon enough.&lt;br /&gt;Went home and started getting ready for All Hallow's, of course we ended up running late, it took me an ass long time to get my hair done. BUT! We got to the witches ball with 5 minutes to spare for the Rite (thanks to cabbing) stayed there for a few hours. The rite was beautiful, interesting. We were standing at exactly the wrong place though, we could hear people downstairs not participating better than the speakers. Ah well. The costumes were all really cool, the booze was too expensive as usual. Funtimes were had. &lt;br /&gt;We then walked over to Mike's place for his party. It was really... mellow? It seemed almost muted. Maybe it was because I was so hammered the night before, but I just couldn't get a buzz on. Drank a bunch of redbull and was still tired. &lt;br /&gt;Cabbed home around 2am I guess. Ate candy, watched Wolverine, passed the fuck out.&lt;br /&gt;Now it's Sunday, and I'm chilling at home from now. I realize with daylight savings, I have no idea what time it is, so I should think about getting ready for Simpsons and work, and I really should have done some laundry, but ah well. &lt;br /&gt;Whatcha gonna do?&lt;br /&gt;Bai for now&lt;br /&gt;xoxo</content>
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  <entry>
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    <title>Why Can't Frankenstien have Kids?....</title>
    <published>2009-10-27T16:24:57Z</published>
    <updated>2009-10-27T16:24:57Z</updated>
    <content type="html">....Because he's got a Hollow Weenie.&lt;br /&gt;*Ba zing!*&lt;br /&gt;That's a Nancy joke for you. &lt;br /&gt;You're welcome. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;This weekend was pretty good. A little more mellow than I intended it to be but good nonetheless. &lt;br /&gt;Friday I got absolutely smashed and we went bowling. First time at 10 pin. Exciting. I lost every game! Take -that- Natalie! HA! I was supposed to hang out with Julio, but I ended up just passing out on his couch. &lt;br /&gt;Saturday...started with arguments, but then got better and I got what I wanted, which was to sit and chill and talk. Not to watch a movie I'd seen 5 times, again! But if you tell a man, especially your siginifgant other, that you want to talk... *crickets*.. or "No seriously, what do you want to do?" or "Take about sucking my dick?" Ha. Well, we did end up  talking, a bunch. And we developed a neato sci-fi idea. See, take that! &lt;br /&gt;I went home, chilled, people came over.. Nat and I ATTEMPTED pumpkin bread... yeah.. not so good. We'll try again later. :P I was supposed to go the the party for the scavenger hunt, but after trying on 10 different things and waiting around for 2 hours I wasn't up to it. &lt;br /&gt;I instead went home and organized my place more. Put stuff in storage. HUZZAH! Went to the Dom for a beer, but then home to bed. &lt;br /&gt;Sunday was the ZOMBIE WALK! I'm trying to put pictures on Facebook, but they're being GEIGH! And I have to work in 7 minutes. &lt;br /&gt;BLARG! &lt;br /&gt;Zombie walk --&amp;gt; Dom --&amp;gt; Nice shower --&amp;gt; Chocolate --&amp;gt; Simpsons --&amp;gt; Awesome Weekend rolls to a close. &lt;br /&gt;Welcome this week.&lt;br /&gt;Tonight I'm seeing MANTRACKER! &lt;br /&gt;Like, live, in the flesh. He's coming to the school. &lt;br /&gt;I'm so very very excited.&lt;br /&gt;P.S. I need snakes!</content>
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    <title>Everybody's working for the weekend...</title>
    <published>2009-10-23T19:54:52Z</published>
    <updated>2009-10-23T19:54:52Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Dresden Dolls- Sing.</lj:music>
    <content type="html">I know I am.&lt;br /&gt;I like to weekend. I like to sleep in. I like my apartment. &lt;br /&gt;OH! &lt;br /&gt;EXCEPT! &lt;br /&gt;It being on Dalhousie, busy street, lots of noise. Okay, fine. &lt;br /&gt;This morning...at 7:30 in the MORNING! There was this flash mob I guess, people dressed in Subway t-shirts with signs and stuff, saying to vote for one sub or another, WITH MEGAPHONES!&lt;br /&gt;What kind of assholes would do this at 7:30 in the MORNING! Jerks.&lt;br /&gt;Should be a fun filled weekend. Here's hoping at least. &lt;br /&gt;Could still use that extra day a week. &lt;br /&gt;Been feeling ill lately, feels like strep. Dry annoyed throat.&lt;br /&gt;Shit, &lt;br /&gt;I have to go back to work! &lt;br /&gt;Only an hour left though.&lt;br /&gt;Woo freaking HOO!!&lt;br /&gt;xoxo&lt;br /&gt;Me.</content>
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    <title>ugh</title>
    <published>2009-10-22T22:23:15Z</published>
    <updated>2009-10-22T22:23:15Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Good enough day.&lt;br /&gt;But last hour, STRESS!! Move over John Edwards, my boss is the biggest douche in the universe. &lt;br /&gt;I have so much laundry I need to do. &lt;br /&gt;I'm very excited for the weekend. &lt;br /&gt;I don't have a team for the scavenger hunt but that's okay.&lt;br /&gt;I need to Zombie-fy myself for Sunday. &lt;br /&gt;There should totally be an extra day a week. That we don't have to work, that I can get stuff done in.&lt;br /&gt;Fer-Serious.</content>
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    <title>Bonjourno LJ</title>
    <published>2009-10-20T18:04:20Z</published>
    <updated>2009-10-20T18:04:20Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Random House</lj:music>
    <content type="html">How's it going? &lt;br /&gt;I start work soon. I don't particularly want to, but eh, what can you do? &lt;br /&gt;This week, like everyweek seems so busy. How do I end up being so busy? &lt;br /&gt;So we big move was on Sunday. I am now officially in my apartment, even though I've only stayed there once. I'll stay there again tonight. &lt;br /&gt;I got my purple bath matt so I'm happy. Man this place is really costing me a shit load, but it will all be worth it in the end. I'm thinking it's missing some pumpkins. There's a decent little shelf by the windows and it would look really cool to have some jack o lanterns in there.&lt;br /&gt;Tomorrow I have my hands-on session with Heather. I'm really excited. I've been preparing some excercises and stuff. Whee. &lt;br /&gt;Then there's talk of Big John Bates, which Alex saw in Vic..tor..ia? No, maybe Tofino. Anywho. That's that.&lt;br /&gt;I'm getting more excited for Samhain.. or.. sorry. Halloween. :P I got my amazing dress, which I can use over and over again. I think next year, I may go as Justice. Neat eh? This year I'm doing Medusa. &lt;br /&gt;Anyways, I just realized I have nothing of substance and I'm all distracty. I just wanted to update for the sake of it. &lt;br /&gt;Taa daaaa.</content>
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